The title is an honest question. There are things that royally tick me off, and there are things that I can get contemplative about. I understand that I have been known to fly off the handle and I have my moments where I can sit back and be calm about whatever is in front of me. That being stated, I know what my aggravation points are right now-people who aren't in my position or have never been in my position telling me what to do and people not recognizing me as a person. Those two things, right now, are my biggest gripes with those around me. I'm over being shoved aside on the phone because someone else more important is calling you. Especially when you call me. Get that one more time-you called me, I didn't call you, and then you're too busy. Must be nice, to be that indispensable. News flash, cemeteries are full of indispensable people. I guess what I'm saying is that it's disrespectful. It's also insulting to think that I can just go get a job at Walmart, Target, a grocery store, or to go wait tables. In case you forgot, customer service isn't exactly my strong suit. How long do you think it would take for me to insult some fat whale buying a gallon drum of ice cream with a 12 pack of diet coke? I give it a millisecond, and if you know me, then that might even be too long. I can't sit still as is, and I for certain can't deal with people much younger and more immature than me. Granted, I'm a goofball when I want to be, but I'm used to doing certain things, willing to try new things, but I'm not overly excited about going back to things I did in high school and college. My friends who tell me to pour drinks, I appreciate you, I really do. But I haven't done that in over 13 years. And now, at the age of 34, I like to be in bed most nights by 11 or midnight. Doesn't make me a fuddy-duddy, just makes me smart enough to know that I need my rest to have enough energy the next day to deal with the bullshit of job searching and networking. The whole concept of not recognizing me as a person whose time is valuable or even worth anything, I don't really know what else to say. It's offensive, and I think it's made me more cognizant now and moving forward to respect other people's time and their ability to meet with me. I hope I never take that for granted.
The more important issue, in the last few days, has been me noticing how much my ego has had the absolute snot kicked out of it. And make no mistake, I didn't think I had that much of an ego. Oh how I could not have been more wrong. I was brought up to recognize that a man earns, for himself, for his family, for the charities he believes in, not necessarily in that order. The order changes day by day. I haven't earned in over a year. My male ego is bruised beyond recognition. And here's the added 'bonus', it's a male ego on top of it. I can't even be the arrogant prick I sometimes was because I have nothing to stand on, other than my morals and principles. Kinda tough to go toe to toe with someone on moral high ground. Whoop-di-damn-do. And please don't be offended by the following, but if you're a woman reading this, you have no idea what it's like to have a male ego, much like I don't know what it's like to be a woman-I haven't a clue what it's like to have some mongoloid hit on me because I have tits and decided to shave my legs and wear a skirt. I know that might be a bad example, but I'm told that happens, right? (That's not rude, is it?-seriously, not meant that way) The same way you earn for your family is similar, but doesn't make it the same. I hate to break it do anyone, but we're different. Flat out different. Women have better traits in certain areas, men have their better traits. I'm a man, so I go with what I know. You may think what I just typed is foolish, and that's fine. You didn't live my life, I don't live yours. Just my opinion, that's all. And since it's my bruised ego I'm talking about, I guess I'm the expert. This is honestly the biggest reason I haven't written anything all week. I hadn't a clue what to say. I don't want to snap at anyone, nor do I want to burden my friends with my stupidity or my wondering if I'm ever going to work again. I swear some days it feels that way. Heck, by the time you read this, I'll be out of work for 14 months. Wrap your head around that if you dare. I wouldn't wish the lack of joy in my life on anyone, flat out.
Alright, that's out of the way. Now it's time to give you some good news (believe it or not I have some). One of the other reasons I haven't been typing away for the masses (all 3-4 of you) is because I started taking online tutorials for some computer database platforms that I have wanted to not only brush up on, but I can actually learn. This brings up two things, first that I had some really crappy people that I worked for that never gave me the opportunity to learn the things I wanted to learn even when we had the things out there for me to learn this stuff. The other thing is that (and don't worry, I already kicked myself for it-hard) this stuff was available to me the whole time I've been unemployed. It's like the old sales saying-'if you don't ask then you can't be told no'. Oh well. At least I still like learning certain things, and I'm using my brain for something other than job searches and fantasy sports.
Job update
The Account Manager for the HR software company is a no-go. Get this...my contact was going to hand my resume to the CEO when he had a massive heart attack and passed away. Now that company is on the verge of being bought out. My heart goes out to the guy's family and I hope everything works out well for his company and those employees.
Work From Home? I'm looking for this type of opportunity right now as well, but I'm running into a lot of scams. No, I'm not doing medical transcription, those people's handwriting and talking is worse than mine. But the data entry stuff? I can do that all day.
I had an interview on Wednesday for a Project Coordinator role, as a contractor. The interview went really well, since I know a little bit about project management, and the two guys that interviewed me were very polite and professional. I think I can bring something to their group and in turn can learn quite a bit. It's an 18-24 month project, so I could earn some money, do some things (like move out of my living situation!) and pay off some bills. Who knows, maybe even eat some hamburger with the helper.
Radio show. I have a friend of a friend who runs an internet radio company and hope to meet with this person next week to see about me getting my own show. Now that would be pretty damn cool. Wouldn't it?
So there are irons in the fire, as always, some might be far-fetched, others may be closer to reality, I honestly have no freaking idea. I know I'll just keep plugging away.
Now, the funniest question posed to me in the last 2 weeks has been this one-'So, you seeing anyone, dating?' Bwahahahahahahaha! Now that is hilarious. How about 'no' with a side of 'are you serious?' I'm in no mood to date, have no money to date, and am a bit weary from my last endeavor into the dating world. It's going to be awhile before I dip my toes into those waters anytime soon. I'm not really wanting to discuss a whole lot more about it, so please, just leave it alone. I've written my thoughts about it, for myself, and maybe someday I'll share. And as much as I like to share all sorts of stuff about my life on this blog, some things are still too personal and a little bit raw to lay out there. It is what it is and that's all I'm saying for now.
I'm tired now, so off to bed I go. You'll see fantasy football advice next along with how The Oracle did last week, and I'll give my take on some sports (I know, someone out there is thinking-"Finally!!"), and some other pop culture stuff. Other than that, I will tell you I make a mean Chicken in a pot, and if you ever need the recipe, hit me up, so simple yet so good.
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