Bored, but very excited

So here's something very weird....I can't get on facebook while at this new gig, but I can blog...hmm, might be a little dangerous---for them, not me.

These people are so darn polite it's killing me. They have no edge. It's like dealing with your Grandparents all the time. Sure it's great, but you need something or someone to push you forward.

They think that the project I'm working on is very difficult. Uh, not exactly. There will be a bit of a time crunch in June, but not nearly as drastic as they think. I've dealt with much tighter deadlines and demanding folks, they just aren't it. You'd think I'd be excited and that this is a refreshing twist. Hogwash. It's dull. And since I'm contract, I have to sit here for 8 hours. Yes, I'm happy to be making money. But money ain't it's all cracked up to be. That's a funny thing about making it seem like you're always broke. You have no idea or concept of money. My bills are paid and will continue to be paid on time. It's just who I am.

I'm tired of being bored, not just in this job, either. I miss home. Badly. I miss my knuckleheaded brother, my slightly nutty Ma, my friends. I've been in Denver for almost 12 years and yet I still call back east home. My Aunt and Uncle moved to San Jose a couple of years ago, and since then, I have no sense of home. Home has always meant family to me, and after Easter, my family is far, far away. And I have no desire to start one here.

As much as I can complain about all the old-school and sometimes neanderthal ways of back east, I admit now that it's a neighborhood thing. I miss my family, my boys, my community. Who knows, it could be that since everyone is getting married off that I'm bored and need some new folks to hang out with...but that requires a breaking-in period. I'm not in that space right now. I'm all full on new people. That will probably change in a couple of weeks, but right now, I'm good.

I've got a decent idea of what I'd like to do, and although I could do that from almost anywhere, my inspiration is all from back east. I may bomb doing it, but you either believe in the old adage of 'nothing ventured, nothing gained', or you live in fear and complacency. Best of luck if you are in that group.

I guess what it means is that once my lease is up in July, I'm packing up my crap and moving back. And I've got quite a few good reasons.....care to guess on any of them?

Happy Tuesday to you!!!