How does it unfold?

I honestly have no clue. That's the God's to honest truth. I have no inclination on how the story goes. It's not like I have any idea, clue, or expectation on how the rest of the story gets told, as it hasn't unfolded in front of me, or us, quite yet. I usually have some type of premonition before things happen, sometimes up to 2 months ahead of time.

This time? I've got nothing!! I'm on a plane in like 4 days to go back home. I have some interviews lined up, my ride from the airport is taken care of, but I have no clue what I'm doing.

Where is my future? Is it Denver? Boston? Chicago? San Jose? How about Vegas? And what will I be doing? If anyone has a clue-please-feel free to let me know. I haven't been this confused in years. And the best part, if you want good news on this, is that it has nothing to do with anything else other than me.

What has me so confused is that I used to be able to consult my compass, at all sorts of weird hours. My Dad would always answer the phone, listen, and calm me down. My Mom tries to do a good job, but she's always Mom, making me feel better and telling me everything will be okay. How does she know that? The main difference between my Mom and Dad in this type of scenario is easy....Mom says it, Dad just made me feel it. I know that in the long run whatever is meant to happen will happen, and it will be my choice, but the anticipation and lack of decisiveness is making me very uneasy.

The best part about all of this is that my boy, my baby brother, truly has become a friend. I never thought it would happen. We're so similar and so different, I swear sometimes we're each others ying to the yang. It's awesome and frustrating, because if we're both in a pissy mood, yikes. I called him up and he was in a great mood and totally made me feel better.

And we've both learned something in the last couple of months that wasn't relayed all that well to us when we were kids-It's not about the destination, it's about the ride that got you there.

Buckle up, it's about to get a little bit bumpy, but I'm going to have some fun along the way!