Need to be arrested by the dummy police

well it's come down to this...I don't even listen to my own advice sometimes. And even though some things come out in TV and even movies, it has been known to come true quite a few times.

So what the hell am I talking about? Let's see, I talk sports, politics and every once in awhile I talk about the ladies. So here's whats what:

We chase that which retreats from us---damn, that's gold right there. Now, why do we chase? Instinct, that's the only reason. I know some people love the chase, fine, so be it. Maybe they are just a little bit closer towards our evolutionary brothers and sisters than the rest of us. Congrats to you. But it sucks for those that think they can play. Life slaps us folks a little bit faster and firmer to remind us that we don't belong in this here game.

She's just not that into you-DUH! Would you like the rubber or wooden mallet to smack you over the head for this one?

No matter how hot she is, someone is tired of her shit-Yet another true statement.

The point is this, you can chase all you want, but you'll never catch her unless she wants to be caught. End of story.

As I type this it's dawned on me that I may be the biggest moron in the history of dating/courting/romance. I pine for a girl I dated 2 years ago....2 Freakin' Years!!! How many opportunities have I let go by due to this stupidity?? 1? 5? 10? I truly have no idea. All I know is that this crap ends now. She's out there, and she knows I care, way too much. And I have a slight idea as to why. Because nothing ever happened. It's all in my head.

This girl is lacking the one thing that we all would like to have with someone we care about....time. Getting a hold of her is like trying to nail jello to a wall. It's an exercise in futility. And why do I continue to do this? Because I'm a moron. Because I care. I am the definition of the word dumbass. Chump. Sucker. Dolt. I feel like a 'tard.

So if you're out there and you somehow found out my blog postings....please, leave me alone. I can't take the yo-yo effect. It's messing with my head, my work, and most importantly, my heart. This 32 yr. old ticker can't take it. It's too much. I ache when you even show me the slightest acknowledgment of my existence. So knock it off.

If you're married or in a relationship, you might not remember making this mistake. If you're single and making this mistake, I'm right there with you. I know this is like eating a shit sandwich, and it's not right to do this to yourself.

Sorry if you think this is depressing, but it needs to be stated. I feel all sorts of stupid right now, I know I've wasted too much time and far too much energy on someone who will NEVER give this back to me. I've stated it to friends that I need to move on. Everytime I'm thinking that I'm out of the web of her attention, she spins it right back and I'm hooked again. It's my heroin. Except that there is no rehab for this. I either take this stand now, or I continue the toilet bowl swirl of bad dating and piss poor excuses of why I can't get next to anyone else. Why I can't smell them, taste them, or God forbid, even attempt to love them.

So I choose to stop the cycle. It ends here. Lady, if you're out there in cyberspace, know that I think the world of you and would do anything for you. You have something that I can't get back, don't want it back--a piece of me. Keep it, throw it out, flush it, put a border around it and mount it on your wall. It's your to do with as you wish. But know this; you can't come back because I won't let you. The Karma Gods won't allow it to happen.

You know what the best part about this whole thing?----tomorrow's a new day.

Good Night!